Here We Go

It's time I guess. I'm just going to get it out there. There comes a time in every large person's life when you have to look at really tough things. Well, I've been looking, and I've come to the decision that I am going to have gastric bypass surgery. I know, I know, everyone has an opinion about the idea, and that's ok. I'm even open to you sharing if you'd like. And I hope that there is a time I can share all my thought processes and reasonings right back.

It took a lot of time, education, hurt, and health for me to come to the decision. But I have gotten there, and I'm excited!! I am not nervous or afraid. I only have high hopes for the process. I do not expect this to be an "easy way out", neither do I expect the out come to be particularly pretty. But I hope for a long healthy life! I hope for energy and enthusiasm. I hope for an all around positive, difficult, awesome, scary, hard, great outcome!

Now, bummer that haven't blogged in a while and this is all you are getting, but, this is all you are getting. Tomorrow maybe I'll go back to telling you how great my kids are and shareing all the cool things they are doing again. But for today it's about me and life changing, drastic, necessary decisions.

Smiles everyone! (Remember that guy from Fantasy Island?) :)

Beautiful Day

A picture is worth a thousand words. Since I'm blogging from the iPad I dont have one, but I wish I did. It would be of my friend Lyndi, with a huge smile on her face. Today she was baptized a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

Her faith and her willingness astound me! Her humility and her testimony inspire me. She is a beautiful soul! I am a better person becaus of my association with her! Her spirit lifts me!

Lyndi's life has been anything except smooth sailing. I can not think of a person I have met who has trials like hers. She grew up in conditions that a child should never experience. She was disowned by her family many, many years ago. She has no family other than her own biological chidren and step children. Yet, Lyndi is soft, is aware of beauty around her and is totally in tune with the spirit.

Today she said, "I am resolute! I have no doubt that what I am doing is the right thing." I am so blessed to be her friend!

Dear Marina

Dear Marina,CA,

It's flattering that friends and family enjoy my blog, or at least look at it every once in a while so I don't feel like I am writing to no one... But,I can't figure out who you are. So, if I know you please reveal yourself.

I understand it if I don't know you. I mean, I blogstock every once in a while too. But, it may be getting a bit serious. For a couple of days now you've been hanging around. You have been to my friends sites too, and frankly it's starting to freak me out a bit.

Please feel free to tell me I'm crazy and that you're my long lost cousin. I'd love to visit or something. I need a good trip to the northern coast! We can really connect out in the open.

Sincerely, your loving novice blogger,
Billie

ramblings and stuff

Oh... *heavy sigh*... I don't have a computer to write on lately. Its a pain because when I want to write I can't. At least not very easily. Right now I'm writing on an iPad, with the three finger hunt and peck method. Don't like it much... But I have thoughts to get out.

Nearly every week or day or month or minute it seems like I am watching my kids grow before my eyes. It's humbling as a mother to watch them. Tonight Baillie grew up a little. She went to her first volley ball practice. Papa took her and the situation was scary for her, for various reasons. When she got home she let out her fear and cried. But, because I wasn't there she had to deal with it on her own. I told her, "you grew up some tonight." She agreed. Since the new year this sweet girl has continued to be our catalyst for scripture reading. It has been so nice. I love this girl with all my heart.

Carter had a couple of presentations at the school tonight. His Teachers Quarm came to support him. His teacher said to me, "I just love Carter, he is so smart". And you can tell he really does. Carter is the kind of boy you want your kids to hang around with. Last week he was in honor band, (he was amazing and wonderful in it... Cuz I said so), we carpooled with his friend Katherine. He was so kind and gentleman like. He didn't open the door for her, but when we went to her house he got out of the front seat, then sat in the back by her. They are just friends but it seemed like he wanted to make her comfortable. He is a sweet boy. Always.

Kendahl brightened my evening tonight with her smile. She has a beautiful smile and a cute little giggle. I worry a lot about her, with this being her senior year and all the college stuff. I fear how adulthood and life will treat her. But... If she takes her smile and her giggle with her she'll get through anything.

And finally... My nearly adult 7 year old is just as amazing as all three of the others! I write often about him.

I'm blessed. Very blessed!!

Just wanted to say all of that. I wish I could type in a regular manner and then I would be able to write a lot more.