Good News

I have a date! A date with Dr. David Suh!

On August 31st my surgery is set to happen. If you don't know what I'm talking about, you haven't read my blog for long. ;)  "This post" will tell you all about it. I'm having gastric bypass surgery. Please read the post if you have any questions. It's a good thing and I've been researching it and studying all about it for a long time. I'm ready.

There is so much I wanted to share and that I have in my mind about it, but I've gone on a "diet" the doctor put me on and I can't think anymore! I went off of caffeine, off of sugar, off of starchy foods (potatoes, pasta, bread, crackers, rice). The reason for the diet is to help me loose a little weight before surgery so that the surgery is more easily preformed. Also it is set to shrink my liver and that helps with the surgery and also the safety of it. The problem with going off of everything at once is that I'm in withdrawal!! I have been so tired! To the point that I really haven't functioned well since I started! Saturday was pretty much shot as far as doing anything was concerned!! I pretty much stayed in bed all day. Today wasn't much better. Toward the end of the day I was able to be up more and help make dinner. I hope tomorrow is even better, I have to work and be productive!!

Some people would ask, "If you can go on a diet in order to have the surgery, why can't you just go on a diet and loose the weight?" Well, I'll tell you. Until you've walked in my shoes.... No, after three days of doing the diet I was asking myself that. My answer is that I know in a short time I am going to have a tool that will help me continue and if I can make it through this short time, I will soon have help. That makes all the difference in the world for me!

I'm still scared. I'm sad. I miss food. We were grocery shopping last night and just walking around the store was hard. Everything in the store is cereal, cookies, bread, etc! Everything! I may have to say a million times how much I miss food. I'm only on day 3 and the thought of if is overwhelming.

My biggest worry is if I can really trust myself. That's pretty much what it's all about! And it's something I have been working on my whole life! No one else matters in this whole weight loss surgery thing. It doesn't matter what people think, it doesn't matter what they say. Lots of people tell me "don't do it!" And it doesn't bother me. It's ok. It's not about them. I guess I need "support", but mostly from myself.  It really comes down to me. That's kinda heavy... no pun intended! :)  (That sounds really self centered but I don't mean it that way. I just mean that it comes down to me trusting myself.  It's hard to explain. I love all the friends and family I have that are there for me and support me!!  It does mean the world. I don't question them or their intentions, but I do question myself... That's all.)

Just a note: if you want to talk about it or ask me about it please email me!!  I would love to have the conversation. Really!  billie7744@gmail.com

grrr.

I wanted to post about good news I've had for a couple of days. But right now I'm in a grrrrr mood so I can't bring myself to find the words. Grrr and happy don't go together.

I'm feeling b.a.d. Yesterday was One complete day with no sugar and no startches and no caffeen!!!  I don't even have the energy to tell you why...  I just feel like crap.

So, hopefully after a couple days of this I will start to feel better and I can talk about it. There is good news on the horizon if you are Billie Noh, so I want to share.  I'll get around to it.   :|

Have a better Saturday than I am having !! ;]

QT

Ok Arizona people, do you really think I'd write about a corner gas station?  I think not!  (If that one person ever reads this, I'm sorry, I wasn't really making fun of you.  Just thought it was cute.)  Although, QT is an awesome corner gas station and often a gathering place for friends and family...And... I wish they had them in California!  But I"m not going to write about that QT now.

This time QT stands for Quick Trips I take to Arizona that are awesome and a secret little pleasure of mine.  I snuck one of those in this weekend.  Scott and Brodg and I ran to AZ for a total of 32 hours! Not including driving time of course.  It was wonderful to spend time with Stephanie helping her with ideas for her bathroom remodel.  We looked at tons of paint samples, tile samples, lighting, vanity's and other bathroom kinds of stuff. It was fun.  While we were doing all that Scott and Cory worked on mudding and sanding the bathroom. We didn't do enough, but it was nice to be there doing with them at all.

The other perks to the QT were dinner with my parents and sisters and a much needed visit to see my grandma. I feel blessed that we have to means and ability to travel in comfort and speed.  I need those trips. The only thing that could make it better would be stolen time with other friends I love too!!

And on another note, I sat tonight reading through posts from a year and two years ago. I wrote some good stuff. (If I don't say so myself.)  I don't know where my head went, but I'm not there now. But just reading back and feeling some of the feelings from the past made me want to be a better person. I have it in me. We all do! But I get busy and stop taking time to make the efforts it takes to be present and desire something better. Being more present in my life every day is a struggle for me. That's going to be my goal for right now! Being present in the NOW. 

This week is a busy week, but some really important things are happening and I'm getting really excited about them. My other focus is going to be of prayer. I need to do that right now too. I've been in a lax place with not just prayer, but spiritual things in general. It's time to step it up! Good things are going to happen! 

back again! FINALLY

Summer is almost over, but we got to the Beach!  Finally!  I've missed walking in the sand. The salty water on my feet, wind in my face and sand everywhere!  We spent more time on the freeways than we did in the water, but it was all worth it. Our three kids and our neighbor's daughter went with me. I had fun taking pictures with a app camera on my phone.  There are so many more where these came from. Pretty cool.

And while we were doing this Miss Kendahl was working hard at SM with her dad, trying to earn some money for college. She's been doing great there this past week or so. I'm proud of her.

blogbook

Sometimes: no need to post on facebook.
Sometimes: want to post a few a day.
It's a sharing thing. I just get silly or weird and want to share. I think I'm a sharer... Or is it some sickness that the sharer's have? Why do some people share multiple times a day and some people never share? I could go on and on with this, but I don't think it will turn out good. :) 

In the words of facebook, here's "what's on your {my} mind?" lately.

We had a sicko big roach march right through the door into my bedroom the other night!  He thought he owned my house! We had a good 'ol fightin match and I WON!  :)  That dang roach is dead at the bottom of a flower vase. I hate him so much I don't want to touch the vase and dump him...  Remind me to tell my husband to do that!

The weather has been so nice this week!! Mid 80's in the middle of July, that's great!!  But my beautiful summer rash has returned on my legs!  If I get the least bit hot my calves burst into this itchy red hot rash.  It has happened for a few years now since we went on our trip back east.  I doesn't like it at all! :(

Why is it that everything I say needs a :) or a :( ...  I must be be pretty black and white. Good or Bad, Happy or Sad...

Anyway, work. Work, work, work.... Lots to do at work to heal a company! Lots to do to build a company and/or keep it afloat.  Work, work, work...work, work.

AND sleep. Or the lack there of. I am definitely a night owl!!  I like being up at night. I like everything about it. Now that doesn't mean I don't like sleep, but I definitely like it in the morning! Not a morning person. Nope. I'm happy when I wake up-I just would rather not be awake. Wish I could make my own hours in life.

That's about it for the random blogbook posts. I promise, I'll post again sometime!  :))))

Help! I'm going to try "low carb"!

I seriously want your help!

 I'm having signs and symptoms of diabetes... shocker, right?! Well actually, my doctor told me I was "pre-diabetic" a few months back and gave me a blood sugar tester. I'm telling you now, I pretty much have diabetes. My blood sugars are way off the beaten path! I mean they aren't even close to where they should be.  So... in trying to be real with myself, I'm going to make the effort. Tonight I was searching for websites that gave ideas or recipes for low carb options.  None of them look very yummy.  But I'm going to try to do it anyway, because at this point I'm thinking I really need to.

So... If anyone who reads this blog has any ideas or recipes for me, I'm open to hearing and trying!!!  Please share. For now I'm going to take it one meal at a time and try to plan a little ahead so that I have something to eat at work as well.

: /  I hope I can get through breakfast tomorrow.

4th

Kind of a fun day today. I was excited to cook a bit. I'm not a great hostess, I need to learn timing better. It didn't seem like things came out at the right time. Meat done too soon, potato salad not quite cold enough when it needed to be, you know, that kind of thing. But all in all it went well.
I had fun trying a few different recipe's. I made a great simple fruit salad, it needs some perfecting but it has a lot of potential. I need to cut the fruit in bigger pieces. for some reason it seemed to get smaller after it was mixed. But, the stuff you put on the fruit - YuMmY! It's called lemonade pudding fruit salad. See, doesn't that just sound good?!  :)   I got Kendahl to cook with me. Kind of a rare thing.  She was making zesty lemon squares (my favorite). But we had never made them before and I found a recipe. They were pretty good, but for some reason the recipe added salt to the crust. Ya, that wasn't such a good idea. But we'll tweak that also and it'll be the best lemon squares ever!!  It was nice to cook with Kendahl. She was pleasant and willing and that was nice.
We had the norm over, just family and the Brooksby's, Lyndi and a couple of Kendahl's friends, Jenni and Annie. It was relaxing and just a nice day. We had a fun adventure when Annie asked me if I could die her hair a bright red color... Just a few pieces of her hair. It turned out cute and we joked a while about how her mom and dad were going to kill her.  So to add to the fun we got out the fake tattoo's that Kendahl had (why Kendahl has a collection of fake tattoo's I just don't know) and some sticker "earrings" which Annie put on her nose, and we were all set!  Annie went home with died hair, a tattoo, and a nose ring...  She said her mom didn't kill her, but instead laughed.  Whew, I'm glad for that!  We thought she'd think the Noh's are just a bad influence all around!  :) 
The day was enjoyable and ended with a long thunderstorm/rain shower!  Perfect ending to a great day! 

The Weekend News

[The tool shed on top of our entertainment center!]

I like being cool!  No I mean I like NOT being hot, get it?  Cool... on the inside.  I don't like being hot!  I don't like sweating, I don't like dieing in the sun...  Lucky for me it doesn't get too hot here. Maybe 10-20 days out of the year it gets over 100*. But on the days it gets hotter than 100, our AC just can't keep up!  It's not because it's an old unit, no, it's not even 3 years old yet, but sure enough, when the temp rises, the AC shuts off!!! And of course that always seems to happen on a weekend!!!  So today... HOT! AC shuts off and it was probably nearly 90* in the house!  Scott's working on fixing the swamp cooler tonight, so that when the temps rise tomorrow we will have some kind of cooling going on. I hate the swamp cooler.  Too swampy. But better than 90* in the house!

Next ramble, why is it when my house is clean and things are looking relatively good, no one pops over?  No neighbors come to say hi, no friends come over to bring a thankyou treat...?  But on the week that we've been working all week on projects and on the a weekend that we've been working outside all day and not done a blessed thing in the house, that's when friends pop by at night to say hi!!?  I swear it is so embarrassing!  Ya, the top of our entertainment center looks like the tool shed. In my living room right now is an old mattress waiting for my sister to pick it up cause she wanted it.  There are bags on the floor from today's shopping trip to home depot and the pool store. There are boxes of fans that need to go in the kids room.  There is a project left in the middle of the room from my oldest son who became sick half way through the day and he didn't finish the project or pick up his shoes or anything else.  And so on and so on!!  I have a reason or story I could tell for everything that is in the messy living room.... But none of that matters in the moment the doorbell rings!  I mean really, I had to move a 4" paint brush off the couch so the company could sit down!  Why was the paint brush on the couch???  Oh my goodness... : /  Dang I love those friends though, and I hope they still love me!!

This weekend is a long one with the 4th of July on Monday.  I'm looking forward to having people over!  And Yes, the house will be clean!!!  Tomorrow, Sunday, will be a cleaning day after church.  That's how it goes here sometimes!  I need to think of good food to make for Monday. :)  Happy weekend my friends!

Dear God

Pretty often I think that if I had the opportunity to ask God questions I would overwhelm him with the question, "WHY?" (It's probably not the most productive way to live my life. I should consider stopping that bad habit!) But today I saw an article someone posted on facebook and it really made all the why's of life go away.  I liked it soo much I thought I'd share.

http://www.cnn.com/2011/OPINION/05/08/elias.plane.crash/index.html

I liked reading it better than watching it. It really gave me pause about the important things in my life.